Long time no write!
I’m joining you today from our den. It’s 11a.m., I’m still in my PJ’s, having coffee, and making steel cut oats for breakfast. And… I feel guilty. Why? Normally, I’m up and out the door and at the gym by 8am. I usually complete three or four errands before 11a.m., and have a plan for the day. But not today. Today, my usual gym partners had stuff to do, and I got lazy. The day is still going to be busy, I have a speaking engagement tonight and have to wake up at 6a.m. for tomorrow’s workout but yet I still feel guilty. I’m so programmed to hit the gym and get the day going that an off day feels wrong. Why do we feel like if we take time to sit in our PJ’s and have coffee in front of our computer instead of doing something we deem more productive, we’re lazy? I need to learn to feel less guilty. Let me give you an example. Months ago, I was in agonizing pain. I pinched a nerve in my neck and couldn’t even turn my head. Painfully, I went to work. I felt awful, but I knew if I called in sick, I would sit at home feeling not just pain, but guilt. It’s the thought of not being active, productive, or soldiering through pain that makes me feel yucky inside. I am trying to change my life for the better. I am trying to let things go and just be. That is proving to be a very difficult task. I never knew how hard it was to just breathe, let go and move on. If my body says ‘sleep in and skip the gym today’, I want to wake up and not feel guilty the rest of the day, but rather enjoy the extra time with my husband and just be.
I know you know what I mean. I know you’ve been there too. So, tell me, how do you let go of the guilt and just be happy?
P.S.- My oats are delicious, and I’m staying in my PJ’s a little bit longer… 😉