Everything at this point is icing on the cake.

I mean it.

I have never wanted anything more than to live the life I am living right now.

That doesn’t mean I won’t strive for more, I certainly will, and do… but the right now is pretty darn incredible.
So what’s the problem? I’m not entirely sure I appreciate it enough or am content with it all.

I’m have my dream job, in my dream city, living in a dream home with a loving husband, close to my family. I count my blessings every day, I really do.  But saying “thank you” and being content with what you have is vastly different.

Is something missing?  I’m not sure.  I am very happy, and feel energized about my life today more than ever before.

But I still have an “unsettled” feeling.  A feeling of wanting more, or needing to do more.
I recently was diagnosed with anxiety attacks caused by thyroid problems.  Nothing a few daily pills won’t cure, but I just have to believe it’s because my mind is constantly wandering.  I can’t focus on the here and now but rather the what should I be doing next, will I have time? can I cram more in?

So today, I ask you…

Have you ever had that feeling?

If so, how did you or do you, find fulfillment?

I’m sure I’ll figure it out one day, but until then, I anxiously wait, and lick the spoon. 🙂

 

DP